One subject that I have yet to talk about and that I will be talking about and supporting in my book is gay Christians. I grew up in the Southeast United States back in the 80s and 90s, and my father was a devout Southern Baptist. Now I greatly appreciated being taught the faith that I was given, but there were parts of it that hurt me deeply. Unfortunately there are still many, many other people across the country and across the world that are being hurt in the very same way, and I have decided to try to help them.
When I was around the age of 14 I started having feelings toward my friends that I didn’t understand, but my father kept telling me that if I was to become gay that he would disown me and kick me out of the house. At the same time, my church was continually teaching me that if I was to be gay that I would be struck down by God and sent to hell and burn in a pit of fire for all of eternity. Now I will not get into all of theology in this blogging session, but at that age these lessons scared me out of my mind and made me hide who I was inside. This kept me from exploring my full potential and allowing me to get to know myself. So I hid my feelings from my family and friends. The whole time I was in junior and senior high school I was longing to have a boyfriend or even a girlfriend, but because I was afraid to act on my feelings I never even went out on a date except for one time. So for my entire youth I was longing for love and to express my love, but was unable to do so.
Now my father passed away when I was 18, but it still took another 10 years after his passing for me to overcome these teachings and accept myself and love myself for who I am. Now by reading the Bible on my own and praying to my God myself, instead of just listening to the words of other fallible humans, I know that I am loved and accepted and am perfect just the way God made me and so are you. I had to take the time to get to know myself and love who I was before I could love anyone else. Ever since I have been able to understand that Jesus saves me even with me being gay, because He loves me; I have been so much happier in my personal life and able to explore my faith as well as my sexuality openly and without fear. The feeling of freedom that my God has given me since that day has truly liberated my heart and soul, and I wish to give that to everyone else.
I am writing this particular subject today, because I have had an epiphany this week. My heart lies here, and I aim to help other gay Christians know that their God loves them just the way they are. You are perfectly made in His image, and anyone who tells you differently is not reading the same Bible or praying to the same loving God.
I hope that this week’s post brings healing to someone, and I encourage you to post responses here on my blog. I will respond to them and truly appreciate everyone that reads what I write. My book is coming along great and I will be speaking soon. So keep a look out for me. I may be speaking in your neighborhood very soon. God bless everyone and have a great week.